i really think my inability to get into wise mind is a result of not engaging in the please master skills… i need to eat. i need more than caffeine. turning on the oven.

the reality is it doesn’t matter how horrible i feel tonight. how exhausted i feel. i need to put some nutrients into my body.

food and judge judy?

let’s try this.

Edited to add:

bread was a good choice. Ciabatta roll from Companion? an even better choice. After the initial uneasiness of biting into it… I hate that first bite more than anything. The act of bringing something up to my open lips and then having to bite down? Sometimes feels like too much… but the Ciabatta roll made it impossible to take forever to eat it. There is no ritual there. There is no normalized (for me) way to eat it… you can’t cut it up, tear it up, or anything of the sort. You just have to eat it.

and I did

Advil PM should mean sleep soon. for that i am thankful. I am supposed to work an 8 hour shift tomorrow.