So…

I am really freaking out about starting PHP tomorrow…

My dog has been incredibly clingy today.

My urbex got cut majorly short, which is sad since I won’t be able to do it again for awhile probably….

And I forced myself to eat - which was dumb as I have a feeling I will still feel full tomorrow and even more overwhelmed… I don’t know.. Sort of dreading. Sick to my stomach anxiety and nerves. And I don’t want to blind weighed. I am never blind weighed. I have no issue with my weight and I feel like if they insist on blind weighing me they’re saying something’s wrong with my weight. There’s not and isn’t going to be… It is what it is… Always.

Debating doing a Bar Method class tomorrow morning at 7:15 to relax me… I don’t know…

Oh and I HAVE to go to work Saturday. No choice. 6pm - close… That probs won’t go over well, but I really couldn’t get out of it (I tried)… A coworker lost two of her grandparents… And she was the only one who could cover it…

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# bar method # eating disorder # php # mccallum # mccallum place # eating disorder recovery # nerves # nervous # anxiety # life # treatment # recovery # therapy # op # personal
  1. betterforthechange said: Okay. Eating is never dumb. It just feels that way. And feelings, thank God, aren’t facts. PHP is scary, but you have faced your fears in the past and survived. You can do this now. I have full faith of you.. I’m here if you need to talk.
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